Ok, so a week ago, my therapist made a comment. A little one, that was just slipped in. I didn’t actually register it at the time. It was later, after I’d got home, bits of the session were floating about in my brain and i was resorting them again. And this one kept drifting back over and over.
It was that she had casually slipped in that we no longer qualify as DID. I sat with this for a whole week, until this week’s session. And I said it our right at the beginning–had I misunderstood? Am I really not DID anymore? How does that work? How do you go from being DID, and then one moment you’re just not DID anymore?
Her answer was that from what she observed, I no longer act as separate personalities, but rather as one ‘blended’ personality. She said she does see parts of all of them, but they are now blended together with me, the one who fronted. So, I guess that means we are ‘integrated’, and I guess it also means there is no ‘we’ anymore, just ‘I’. It is strange, because I don’t really feel any differently. This is going to take a little getting used to.