Growing into Me with Bipolar

I Know When I’m Beat


OK.  So, I will stop the losing battles.  I will stop trying to make the kids clean their rooms and their bathrooms.  I will stop trying to make the kids do their laundry, and hang it up.  I will stop trying to make them rinse their dishes and put them in the dishwasher.  I will stop trying to tell my son not to go to the church he wants.  I will stop trying to make my daughter tell me what is really going on with her, and stop trying to make her accept my help.  I will stop riding them about their homework.

Yes, I will no longer have any expectations at all for either of my teens.  That should decrease the number of arguments and disagreements at least by 3/4!  And, I am no longer going to try to tell them they have been at so and so’s house too much and need to take a break.  No sir!  I officially no longer care what they do.  The only rule from here on out is to be home by city curfew.  If they aren’t, I will call the cops.  That is now the only official rule.

I wish they were gone already, then I could be too.  I’m so tired of this unforgiving, unyielding life.  Even the thing I love most in the world, the thing that has kept me alive for so many years, is now turned upon me.  Now, I have nothing.  No reason to go on, except that they won’t leave yet.Image

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Comments on: "I Know When I’m Beat" (5)

  1. Please dont give up. You are loved. We value you. Your kids cant see it but maybe in time they will too. I hope they do. You are an amazing and kind person. And thank you from us for always being there for us lately when we write. XX

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    • thank you so much. i know i just need to get past the emotions, and look at it with a clear head, from a different perspective. its just so overwhelmingly hurtful at first. but im more clear now.

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  2. Honestly… this just cracked me up because it’s you and every mother who’s been in the pitch that feels like this. It’s like you have to keep a mental memo that you’re just not going to get it right… and they need that… maybe it’s a rite of passage for both sides.

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    • i think you nailed it–it is a rite of passage for both. they are flexing new independence and concepts of self, i am learning to stop being in control of them and recognizing them instead of as a part of me, as a separate island nation.

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      • here’s to today–so far. thinking of you, and wishing you all the best in the last days of this year, and in 2014, as well.

        ~meredith

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