So, I got a new team at my clinic–new psychiatrist, who is really an MD, not a RN CNP like before. He is really experienced, really friendly, listens, calls my other docs and therapists so that all are on the same page, and welcomes having them call him as well. He asked me what I really wanted to do, and I said I wanted to get back on the lithium, and he said right away, no problem! He just wanted me to check with my nephrologist first, to make sure it wouldn’t be an issue with my acidosis/potassium issues. So I talked to the nephro, and he said no problem either. So, soon I will be back on lithium! WHOO-HOO! And I think the tegretol I’ve been on since I was in the hospital is better than the depakote, and I am fairly stable right now–at least not suicidal anymore. So that’s a relief. (Back on my happy pills finally!)
Also got a new Case Manager, F, and he is really really eager to make sure I do/don’t want to do any groups, understand everything, really willing to help me with Voc Rehab, groups, and understanding all my benefits and options. Plus, he is available a lot more than my previous Case Managers were. I am actually signed up to go Bowling (for free) every Monday now, and also to volunteer at a local pet rescue/shelter, both through the clinic. My new RN (for blood draws and such) is the head RN of all the nurses, and is really cool. She is mellow, relaxed, and friendly too. I really like that when I’m getting blood drawn!
The kids are still kinda jerks, but I am less emotional, less trigger-y and reacting less to them now, so we are actually getting along better. My son finally got his car running again, so I have mine back finally, all to myself. Now I just need gas money. Which is hard to come by, as my ex moved out of state and has only just gotten a job. It’s gonna take about 4-8 weeks for me to get my next child support check, so, things are really tight and I am having to ask my son for gas money so I can make bills. Ugh.
I am looking at getting a dog (I already have a cat), but I want a dog as an Emotional Support Animal (no rent, no deposit, can travel with me to wherever I am spending the night) and will be empathetic and sympathetic to my emotions and be a good companion and good support and affectionate. Plus I will leave the house more if I have to walk a dog. I have to wait a bit, since I need to pay deposit on the cat since I am adding a (free) ESA dog to the household, and without child support, I just can’t do it right now. But soon, I hope. 🙂
So that is me in a nutshell and I think things are looking up, even though there are still a few wrinkles to iron out. Ok, they are kinda big wrinkles, but at the moment, I have some hope that it will work out fine soon. I just wanted to let everyone know I am out of the depths of despair, and back on the surface again.