It feels like things are changing. Like something different is coming. Like the current way is on its way out. I don’t know what these changes will bring, but it seems like being here may no longer fit well.
It feels like a complete, brand new me and brand new perceptions, are going to move in. I think I will need to be focusing on living in the now, and preparing for the future moreso than just getting through the days as fast as I can, just so the day will end and I can sleep, repeat, repeat.
Maybe this will be the ‘real’ life, the life I have been searching for forever. Drifting like muddy water in the streets, never finding relief, moving back as much as forward, never making real progress, but maybe, soon, just maybe, I will find my pieces and put myself together again, a new me. One that moves forward and with purpose. Damaged, but mended, and whole for the first time in forever.
I don’t know if I will continue to write here, or if it will be infrequent or often, but I will still read and respond to all those of you I have grown to care for over the last 3 years.